The Failure

It’s September 28th and I wake with severe chest pains. Dazed and confused I start to panic not knowing whats happening. My chest starts to tighten and body starts to shake as I start to breath heavier. A million thoughts are racing through my mind.

Am I having a panic attack or am I at the beginning stages of a heart attack. Unsure what is happening with every second going by my pain intensifies. Frantically googling for answers. There is only one answer that keeps appearing, I am having a heart attack.

I sit down on the floor with knees bent up to my chest to keep the blood in the top half of my body. I try to wake my partner. She doesn’t stir a bit still sound asleep. I reach for my phone to call 999 but there is no signal in the rurel part of ireland I’m in. Unable to call for help I start to shout. My partner still sound asleep.

Im unsure what happened next cause I pass out from the intensifying pain. I awake in the hospital with a drip in my arm and in a hospital gown. Oh is this a familiar sight for me. You see this isn’t my first rodeo to a hospital. I had a kidney transplant back in 2015.

I look to the side and see my partner talking to the doctors. I call her over. She comes to my side and tells me she found me collapsed on the floor. Not knowing what was happening to me she managed to call for help to get me to the local hospital.

By the time I came round my blood result had came back and the good news was I was not suffering from a heart attack. So what was the severe pains in my chest that caused me to pass out I asked the doctor. My transplant kidney had failed after 4 years. But I didn’t understand, failed how could it of failed it was all healthy no more than month go before moving out to Ireland.

We are still unsure of why it had failed. The Severe pain in chest was cause by the increasing levels of urea and creatine in my blood. My kidney had failed in a big way. Creatine levels of 2500 and urea up at 300 mmol/L. Normal was around 130 creatine and 15 for urea.

This is my journey of being on dialysis for the first time in my life and waiting for a new kidney.

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